Rehab

All drugs are destructive. You know you shouldn't have any, but after the first little morsel, you can't stop yourself. You want more. And more. And more. Until you finally reach the point where you realize that the fantasy you were living has shattered you inside and the real world is much too harsh and cold.

All drugs get you on a high. They make you feel like everything in the world has a new color. All drugs are dangerous but the most dangerous of all, is love.

Love, whether requited or not, is more addictive than heroin. When you're in love, you have a bigger high than weed. and when it ends, it hurts more than any detox.

When you're with the person whom you think is more perfect than anything else in the world, you feel like you want nothing else in the world. His friends are your friends. His life is your life. Everybody looks at you and sees you as His Girlfriend. People tell you that you're meant to be together, that he is serious about you. And you believe him.

You fail to see his flaws because love gets you high. You're too blinded to know that you're being played. Not until he leaves and you realize that the high is over and drug is wearing off.

Like detoxing, the end of a relationship has stages. Whether it's just a crush or a serious relationship, these stages are the same for all.

First comes denial. You tell yourself that the rejection is your fault. You refuse to believe that he doesn't love you, probably never did. You spend your nights crying yourself to sleep and your days wondering if he will come back.

Then comes anger, You hate him for having played you. You hate your mutual friends for not warning you and for abandoning you after you broke up. You hate his family, his school, his house, his life. You hate everything about him, everything he did to you and for you. You hate the very memory of him. But above all, you hate yourself for having fallen for him.

After the first two stages, the Third stage depends on who you are more than who he is. You can either choose to set fire to the memories and light up the cold night of rejection, leave back the bitter memories and move on. Which is slightly harder than launching a potato into space using a catapult. Alternatively, you could hold on to those memories. You can learn from them. You can lock your heart up in a box and never trust again. Which is possibly the only way to keep it from breaking again.

No matter which way you choose, detoxing is inevitable. With the high comes the withdrawal. You can't stay broken forever, unless you choose to be. Sometimes, you miss the drug so much, you feel like relapsing. But the best way to move on, is to let it go.

Let go of the anger and the betrayal. What he and his friends did to you can hurt you. But it won't destroy you. Not unless you let it.

We're almost always too hurt by the ones we thought would stand by us, to see the ones who did.

They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Not because once you get hurt you can't hurt again, but because it's when you're lying on the sidewalk with your ribs broken in and your legs fractured that you find the people who will help you up and carry you to safety.  

So basically what I’m saying is, if someone broke your heart, or you’re reeling from a lost relationship, it’s okay to be hurt. It’s normal to feel alone. But you’re never truly alone. Not really.

So just let the b*****d/b***h burn in hell, let go and get on with your life. Somewhere out there is the perfect person for you.